......A POCKET FULL OF STARS.....

might be moving site

2010-05-04T01:27:00.002+09:30

i think i should continue to blog again..so this time i'll start with using a new site called Tumblr..so check it out.. (her-journey.tumblr.com).

sooooo see u there..

love

(i'll try to keep it update) =)

At Last...

2010-03-31T02:28:00.001+10:30

Wah...its been quiet awhile that i've update my blog...

anyway, will try my best to keep this thing updated..

lets start with this,

me getting this at last after been planing to have it since last year.

this thing shines every time i look down..

Tadaaa.......

the thought of wanting to have this comes back a few days ago

went in and out of the shop 3 times and only then I have it pierce..

well, didn't regret doing it (YET)..

well felt like awesome shit though..

esther

x0x0

life

2010-02-28T03:37:00.001+10:30

cried n giving herself a pat on the shoulder.

stupidity

2009-08-23T23:49:00.003+09:30

wah..its been awhile, didn't update this thing call blog.. well not much happen in July.. well,i was sick. 1st time sick in Adelaide..very2 sick..but not that severe. BTW its not swine flu OK.

its when stupidity strike me and Susan. we try to take bath with cold water when its winter season..Gawd!!! i think i was dancing the whole time in the shower. lucky me i didn't slip and fall..the water was damn freezing. its like the cold water u get from the fridge..

after 2 days, i had a cold/flu which leads to cough then my temperature was 39.8 yes i had a fever, which sucks..

so conclution:

never ever try to shower with cold water during winter season.

well a really Good experience which i will never repeat again.

-esther-

*next- gonna try to walk from the campus to the city which is 8.7km..no more winter,its gonna be SPRING!!! cant wait

TAGGED

2009-06-09T01:23:00.002+09:30

This tagged need you to write on a piece of paper to show how your handwriting look likes and fit your own personality.
Here are the rules of the tag:
1. Write down who tagged you.
2. Answer these:
- your name / username / pseudo
- right-handed or left-handed?
- your favorite letters to write?
- your least favorite letters to write?- Write “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.”
3. Tag 5 person.

so here's the anwer

thanks Ruth...!!

10 pins to lights

2009-06-08T00:30:00.007+09:30

at last, we manage to play bowling after 4 times we can't make it..heee..=) lots of excuses and reason..good ones..woke up around 12pm,had a light lunch then went down,because of miscommunication, we meet the others in the bus..accompany nelson,ivanka and johnny for their lunch at hungry jack's..i thought I'm going to control my food intake but i can't stand the fries in front of me..I'm addicted to fried tuber with sodium chloride aka french fries.
after makan2,went to the bowling center somewhere near the city. played 2 set which cost $18.00,yea expensive but whatever we enjoyed it..
1st set we played just for fun,2nd set we compete...and i got the highest point..hahak.."sorry nelson,i win" =p
after bowling,went to the city,shop for shoes and boots for the winter..its gonna be cold this year and winter is near,lots of sale now...0.0
at night, we went to see how Aussie enjoy their night life...it was so random that one of my friend planned this,we took the last bus down to the city again and it was raining some more. 'no car ma,pakai bus lah'..so we head to the club,'red square'..i was sleepy while lining outside the club,thanks 2 3 for free facebook on mobile..waited for almost 1 hour,standing in this cold whether just to get in..crazy?yeah we were crazy ok..so had a few drinks,enjoyed the night,,didn't stayed long, was tired and sleepy..

ok.enuf

picture:

love the bowling center...nice light with disco ball..
with the gurls..(ivanka and susan)

strike..in ur face dude!

the people i went with..(susan,gary,ivanka,nelson,johnny)

at night

with susan..sober and tired face..hehee

ladies...

since i still have 3 more weeks of holiday,alot more to explore in adelaide..

skybar after this..

*wink*

esther

xOxO

midnight bottle

2009-06-05T13:25:00.003+09:30

wine and alchol is cheap here..so u guys who love to drink,dont come here or else u'll die early..

blek=P

just for fun,bought this back..thought wan to drink this..yeayea.very low percentage only

which end up drinking this...

my friend was hanging out in my room, we were planing to drink the one in the 1st pic..

so he dare us to drink what he got in his room..which is this.

tell i what,my first time..had 5 shot, feeling dizzy already..

well,im sorry love..i;ve told u everything...

xoxo

moneymoneymoney....

2009-05-16T00:13:00.002+09:30

today is my second last day placement.. I'm feeling so exhausted and excited at the same time.. these 3 weeks was really a good experience for me. guess what, when we was having our 10 minutes break, suddenly i taught if we work everyday like this,8 hours some more..gosh we'll get to earn lots of money..see this placement is on of our assignment too..we need to do at least 172.5 hours to get sign off..say pass lar... so if this placement we get paid,which we don't.. if we do,it'll be 1 hour $18..so do the math thing,I'll get at least 3K which is without the tax fee lar...0.0
3k aie......i can buy lots and lots of stuff just in 3 weeks...what if 3 months? 1 year here can go back lah... buy myself a sport car..or house near the beach, or might go sky diving or snow boarding which I'm eyeing now...$.$ *wink*

moneymoney
esther
xoxo

feeling lost and syuk today

2009-05-13T22:47:00.003+09:30

gosh... stupid china guy don't understand English.. end up i need to clean up the mess he did.pissed me off...because of him, everything was late; and some of resident got agitated.. wasting my energy and time..gawd,i need a full body massage....someone,anybody,can give a a massage please...*giving the cute doggy face*
maybe tired also because i didn't get enough sleep last night...seriously i went to bed like 10.30pm end up twisting and turning, i can't sleep because many things was running *crazy* in my mind like things here, stuff and people i miss.. haih,is it why things change because i come here ka?
GOd i really need you tell me and show me the way..
praying everyday about you* and everything..sometimes i feel like wanna give up but there is always this small voice inside of me that ask me to be patient and have faith...the word FAITH was always ringing in my head...sometime i think that this things happen is it because of this step i take? how i wish i know..God will u tell me?
until 12 midnight,i can't stand it anymore, i needed to talk to someone.. can't called mummy cause i just talk to her.so end up i called Doreen..she's my partner in crime..hehee..'yen, i know u're reading this'. *wink2*
we have a really good chat last night don't we...told her about what I've been doing,what problems I'm facing, basically everything well maybe not..no worries,i'll call u again..
its been a while i didn't share my problem with someone. i've tried to share with some people but...ya but...hmm..keeping it to myself and it hurts...'_' i wish to talk to someone often but i don't know how....( ya i know buka mulut lah) in the end, all are bullshits...*silly old bugger.*
tell u what yen,i still don't know what I'm suppose to do...I'm so lost...i want to go back...this changes i thought was it because of this step i took?
another good news i wanna tell u..i've found someone that will teach me how to surf... and he's a surfer dude..he called me and tell me that..*wink2*huahahaak....tell gideon that..hehee.. can't wait till next summer...wishing you were here...miss hanging out with ya DOREEN!!!!! (still can't believe u read my blog)

the gurl in pain (hopefully not a pain in the arse for ya)
Esther
x0x0..

Somebody...somebody

2009-05-12T23:31:00.000+09:30

Different people with interesting character..working the the elder people was quite fun but can be quite annoying too.. why i say that...
because she keep on repeating the same thing everyday...we call them BA BO..hehee
imagine everyday u hear this...
"somebody, help me, i need to go to the toilet!'
"somebody, help me, i finish the toilet! i don't like this.."
"can anyone tell me what's the day today?"
"can anyone tell me what are we gonna do today?"
"can somebody tell me what I'm going to do after this?"
"somebody, please help me, i need some money" (latest phrase form her)
the annoying part is, u answer her after a few minutes she will start asking the same question again and again..if tidak layan she will start shouting..
and i can memorize it and imitate her voice..i know I'm good at it...hehee
the fun part is we fool around with her sometimes... look at all the open question she ask...
sometimes we answer her and she will forget what you tell her...you can simply answer her like
"we're gonna kill you", "somebody's gonna get hurt really bad" and she'll say "ai??" and give the blur face...*role eyes*
and the staff i work with are sporting also..especially working with Hazel, Brat, Jacinta and Alan(he's my adopted dad) will upload their picture..

somebody is getting sleepy already..
that somebody is
me
esther
x0x0

things we enjoy doing...

2009-05-06T22:36:00.005+09:30

i would rather choose to study rather than working...miss all the fun in class...i wont write much..

.....pictures.....

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with evelyn.hakunna metata..no worries..

dealing with some serious stuff...

assessment..all the serious faces..

but we also did some monkey business too with mr smith...

silly young buggers..

my carer...

future nurse face...and the patient looks happy..=)

we have learned alot and experience alot too..

like missed the last bus..

sweet memories...

and i know we're gonna have more fun....

esther

xoxo

so sudden

2009-05-05T23:37:00.000+09:30

Goshs......i juz miss the things i do before that i wish can do it now,here and i wonder when i can do it again...?i know some i still can do but some i can't
what i miss...
-running my fingers on my piano and synthesizer and beating the drum..
-driving the vios around miri
-hockey
-handball
-squash
-some sports too like long n high jump, running events..(gosh i dont think i can jump again coz i think my arse is heavy now)
-golf
-dancing
-hanging out with my friends
-miri's beach
-most of all,i miss ma mummy's cooking, and the sinamu too.. and the bua ladeh also..damn i miss it so much..

bad weekend

2009-05-03T20:36:00.005+09:30

thought I'm going to enjoy my weekend after the 1 tired week of practical and have some plans with 2new Japanese friends (i'll post their pic in future) to harbour town for shopping,then go for the church international student youth thing which they called it O2 (oxygen) ,all because of my gum or tooth ache,so tidak jadi..i don't know whether it's my wisdom tooth growing or just my gum swelling but all i can say is,It's painful!!! which leads to my headache. gawd i hate it,its like I'm wearing my braces again. i can't even chew my foods..back to the story,end up to rundle mall again*. and guess what 'my auntie came to visit' and i was in pain..cannot tahan until gotta take painkiller..haih,macam2 saja..
went to do my phone line,went makan, walk around the city with the pain, felt sorry for the 2 girls. send them to the church then i went back Susan and johnny. waited for the bus for almost 1 hour in the cold autumn wind,and that how i got sick,slight fever that night.
didn't went to church today.woke up at 11 somthing after my 12 hour slept. had some porridge, the pain is still there so went to sleep again.
haih..hopefully tomorrow will get a little better. starting my second week of practical.. cant wait to get over the practical assessment. and this reminds me that i still have 5 more assignments..0.0
instead of doing my assignments, i did this........

which i set as my desktop background,,,,Esther's faces

playing in my head, beach boys-sloop john B

So hoist up the john bs sail
See how the mainsail sets
Call for the dentist back home
Let me go home, let me go home
I wanna go home, yeah yeah
Well my tooth hurts
I wanna go home
( change the lyrics)

esther in pain..

xoxo

the tired week starts...

2009-04-29T21:21:00.002+09:30

first day practical i was posted in the dementia unit.. its my first time handling people with dementia..i was a Little scared because of the stories I've heard about dementia patients, but after that i like it. now i would prefer to walk with dementia rather than normal people. why,because its not so tiring working with them. besides that less demanding.. but need a lot of patience. and i got to be called doctor there..hahaak...
one of them ask me this,
'should i go through the door or should i jump off the window?'
i pause for a few minutes, i wanted to ask him to jump of the window actually, i know im a good carer so i told him to use the door.
I've learn alot when i was in this unit, get to handle different types of character..some are weird too...it was fun and tiring too..and i enjoyed it..

The Lighter side

2009-04-15T23:59:00.007+09:30

I Believe-

that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life

that it's taking me a long time to become the persom i want to be

that you can keep going long after you can't

that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

that heroes are the people who do what has to be done whan it needs to be done, regardless of

the consequences.

that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

that sometimes the people you expected to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up

that sometimes when i'm angry i have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

that maturity has more to do with what types of experinces you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

that no matter now bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are but we are responsoble for who we become

that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

simple and sweet

2009-04-13T23:48:00.004+09:30

it's easter monday and it's esther day too! gosh,i just love my name.
turning the big 20 in Australia this year. wow...im 20 oldy. OMG,im old by age but i still look young=)..erm...God, can i throw the 0,i wanna be 2..?
well, this year celebrate in a new place with new friends and i was happy to0 that Serena was here to celebrate with me this year in Australia..

ok,enough with this
pictures.

they manage to suprise me thou...

no cake for this yr but we have instant noodles instead..

and sing some songs....well not juz singing, we got some1 to dance too..

poor jerome, lose his foosball game got force to dance for me...

and we end up with doing Stupid random stuff.... like we always do..

simple and nice,
i love it
thanks guys...

and all of u..thanks for all the wishes too...

muacks...
esther
x0x0

5050

2009-04-03T00:16:00.001+10:30

its Friday. Friday!!! hate Fridays now..
during placement,well everything went quite smooth today. maybe because my mood was a little bit 5050 like that. so as i say everything was OK that morning except for the part where me and 2 of other carer wanted to shower a bed ridden resident. gosh, i tell u, when we did her, omg i nearly vomited. she has a bed sore where it got infected until u can put 3 fingers into the hole. the whole room smells..s..i tell u. with some fluids coming out of the hole. i ask what was that brown fluid and they told me is her feaces. the sore infected till her intestine. now she's using a tube through her intestine for her bowels.
i really pity her,she suffer so much. when i went to see her again after that, i saw tears coming down from her eyes. she must be in so much pain.
OK enough with her.

so to my friends out there.. do appreciate your life. for God sake,stop the alcohol and nicotine,tar from entering and destroying your precious body.because this 2 poison are the causes of all kinds of disease.

so if u don't want to die in pain in the future. stop lar... unless u want to die in pain,i have nothing to say.i kesian saja lah..

Daylight saving..

2009-03-29T15:28:00.000+10:30

i was confident that i had change the time and guess what i missed the bus and missed Church 'again' today.(forgive me Lord)...y? because,i got it all mixed up,the daylight saving is gonna be next weekend.stupid me...

me with a few of my friends was happy cause we have 25 hours today and end up only having 23 hours.

so...im having 2 days with 25 hours and a day with 23 hours..waw 0.0

cant wait for next week..another 25 hours..hehee.. and JD from hillsong is coming.!!=) wohoo!!

another aussie slang.
date-bum,arse..
??

Superclarifragilisticexpialidous

2009-03-25T03:35:00.000+10:30

can u say it? Superclarifraglisticexpialidous. i don't know is that how u spell? hehee..

john say,"if u cant say it fast,i will not pass ur English." i cant get it. i can but I'll go slow.

bored with the class, everyday practical in the afternoon,same thing bored with it,plus with all the nature's perfume around.

bored and we end up with this,playing with Mr smith's hand (the dummy)

and the story goes..

hey mate, hand out ya money.
no way mate.

walah!

and out came the hand!
hahak,..

Logoklogok,

esther. =)

verbal diarrhea

2009-03-24T00:02:00.000+10:30

im in a mess right now...i've had it! i'm getting the shits up by what u've done! with all the bullshits u're giving me.i think im gonna be a fruit loop sooner or later...well,big whoop!
y does this feeling juz got to buggery?i dont want to be niggly at ya,but should i?nop. hvnt reach tat level.=Pcoz i know u wanna make me snaky..ya me know...

ya i know,im having verbal diarrhea
Gawd...!

incase u're wondering what im writting,dont even bother to know,coz im learnning aussie slang.

dream came true..

2009-03-23T16:50:00.000+10:30

first he got me a synthesizer last year..my 1st baby,i miss it,and it's at home collecting dust.. haih...

I'm happy as a pig in shit lar!!

i still can't believe he bought this for me..she's gonna be my second baby,i plan to earn my own money to get it actually..

but....well what can i say, he loves me!! thanks Daddy! muawh!!

now,

waiting for it to reach aussieland..can't wait can't wait! =)

next,

when I'm the boss,I'm gonna get a sport car.. (n i know i will)

hmm..merce?BMW?Mazda?

wait n see...

*wink*

2nd day placement.

2009-03-21T13:02:00.000+10:30

today woke up at 6.30am,need to catch the 7.20am bus,damn the weather is so cold. was very very sleepy,because i didn't slept well last night. twist and turn, twist and turn then i can sleep.haih.

reach there get to work straight away. morning shift duty was very busy,we are suppose to give the residents shower,then they will go for their activity.after their lunch,was not that busy anymore. only wait for them to go poo or wee..poo is the worst part.a few of us got shock because we are still new in this field,like see people in their birthday suit.i shower 1 resident, wash 2 arses (yucks),did 3 bed making,and feeding. and i got scolded for not knowing what a skip was,with their Australian slang, the skip is actually a linen skip.. at the end of the shift I'm very exhausted, my legs hurts.

next week gonna have afternoon shift. 1.30pm to 9.30pm. this is gonna be fun because we might be dealing with dementia patient.hopefully..we'll be seeing walking zombies..hehee..

thanks Susan for the sleeping picture.

down n sick

2009-03-02T23:33:00.000+10:30

no class today. we have visitation to the old folks house.

when out early morning,came back around 5 something, hang around in the city for awhile then went back to the campus.

walk in the rain somemore, end up getting headache...

dont know suddenly felt so down and high at the same time..

maybe cause i miss home.

dont know,i felt like the world around me is quiet.

then i miss him...miss talking to him,joking wif him, laughing wif him...everything...

i was goin through his pictures and comments in his friendster...

i miss him so much...how i wish i can talk to him,hear your voice again..

wish that u are here with me,in australia...like what u have dreamt and talk about before..

at least i have someone to talk to when i have problem..someone to look after me here..

miss u lots

Aaron..

xoxo

esther

bored in class.

2009-02-27T00:04:00.000+10:30

this is what i got today..from voon (vroooooom)

a typical chinese lady went to the US for vacation, saw an accident happen right in front of her..
she called the helpline..this is what she said..

one car come, one car go,
one car bo blake, one car bo stop,
two car ping plong pliang,
please call mimomimo.

bo=didnt

this song is in my head

2009-02-24T17:25:00.000+10:30

Dancing Queen

You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen
Friday night and the lights are low
Looking out for the place to go
Where they play the right music, getting in the swing
You come in to look for a king
Anybody could be that guy
Night is young and the musics high
With a bit of rock music, everything is fine
Youre in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...
You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen
Youre a teaser, you turn em on
Leave them burning and then youre gone
Looking out for another, anyone will do
Youre in the mood for a dance
And when you get the chance...
You are the dancing queen, young and sweet, only seventeen
Dancing queen, feel the beat from the tambourine
You can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life
See that girl, watch that scene, dig in the dancing queen

-dancing to this song-
dudududduu..

Australia....

2009-02-21T13:18:00.000+10:30

damn busy the last few weeks..last minute decision of going to Australia. rush everything within this two weeks. did my medical check ups, visa and my ticket. everything was last minute,but then i manage to finish it. "kau tim"

the night before i leave(15/02/09), i had the eym gang over to my house plus with all my aunties and uncles and all the cousins over.we had bbq and enjoying ourselves with songs. thanks to the retards family too.hahaak..we had some sharing and sang some songs until almost midnight. i really had fun and I'm gonna miss everyone. (aw www)

next day (16/02/09) was the day i was waiting, i departed from miri around 4 something in the afternoon,reach KL around 6 something,and my next flight is 9.40pm. this time I'm going there alone. but luckily one of mummy's friend is going to KL also to meet her daughter. i was alittle bit scared,scared that I'll go into the wrong plane,don't know the way. i was happy that she was there. In KL,i was happy that i can meet him..sad that i wont be seeing him, for quite a while.. i do appreciate that few moments with him there in the airport. i know both of us is going through distance relationship.I'm gonna miss him much much.

through out the flight, i was feeling scared, sad, and happy at the same time. i was thinking what might happen when i reach Adelaide,sad that I'm leaving my love ones behind,happy that I'm going to Australia.it was an 8 hours flight and i reach Adelaide on the 17/02.09 around 7am something in the morning.i was in the arrival hall for 1 hour plus,cause of the customs check.haih.

and i need to wait for another student from Singapore,waited for another 2 hour. i was exhausted by the time i reach the college. that's when i get to know Susan aka Suzanne..
enough with the essay,pictures of my college..kinda old building.

i present HIC (Hosanna International College), Adelaide.

P.S

the time here is 3 hours ahead of Malaysia.

its summer now and the time is gonna change again during autumn.

Life in KSKB

2009-02-12T15:20:00.000+10:30

guess wat! nasib my dad call the SPA( suruhanjaya perkhidmatan awam),ask for my application result..i got the news on the 31st of december,that i have to register myself the next day which is 1st of january 2009. i was then cursing the government almost the whole day..
again,it was new year eve,got bbq dinner at adrian's hse somemore.
haih, i pack my things till 3am, catch the early morning flght to kuching and did my shopping there..at the end of the day,i was exhausted.
what i dun like there is,
1.my room has a BEAUTIFUL view of the campus..huh..there is a cemetry at the back of our dorm.and i didnt sleep well for 2 nights.
2.very very hard to place to eat,because few months ago the student got food poisoning ..u need to walk for 10 minutes to reach the outside cafe'. see,nama saja kementrian kesihatan,but tidak sihat pun. huh
3.no internet line summore. so damn bored!!!
4. everynite having english class except for Thursday and sunday night.
5. lectures was so bored,cant concentrate coz there's like 141 student in the class.. making me end up sleeping in class..hehee..
5.maintenance is so poor.huh..
6. need to study for 3 yrs diploma,4 yrs bond with the gov. onli after that u can take ur degree. by tat tym i'll be 27 yrs old! so long cant wait.
and tat is y i quit..
the only thing i like is the pple in my batch k1/09.. almost all sama kepala..
gonna miss them ol..batch that is full of talents..
dun want to write so much.

Pictures

wif Chan(my roomate).. funny person with her words..(wo bu naii....wo de ai.....ilovu....lasakui....)

this is chales aka chelsea playing with mrs brown hair...teach me how to sanggul like an airstewardest..

my groupmates (group 1)

this r the aRRtist ( yellow shirt guy was an exDj 4 limbang fm)

Penyambut tetamu.

to my hostal

Classroom..

well thats ol..

1 month there was a good experience..

Esther.

2008-09-30T15:41:00.000+09:30

Today,me with my brother and a few of my cousin went to visit Aaron's grave..

This is my 1st time visit his grave after 3 months in Miri and my 1st time driving up there..i used to visit him evertime with my friends (may,julian and adrian)..its alway the four of us..

when we enter the cemetry,i feel like his place was far inside before it was like near..well, the cemetry was almost full..i wonder where would i be burried in future?? hmm..?

when we reach his place,Tunung His baby sister told me and cbeng "Abang Aaron is in heaven so Don't Cry k?".. i was so so so sad when she say that..i just nod my head and hug her..His younger brother reminds me so much of Him..especially his laughter..we sitted for almost an hour there taking pictures,and talked..

well,i'll stop now. here r some pictures we took..

WE MISS U SO MUCH AARON....

WE KNOW YOU ARE WATCHING US FROM ABOVE..

CANT WAIT TO MEET YOU AGAIN,IN HEAVEN..

SEE YOU SOON..

He was in miri...!!!!

2008-09-24T01:42:00.000+09:30

Its been a while that i didnt blog..well what can i say,1st the line sucks n now im using pples line, 2nd home line,my dad did install wireless but then he forgot the password. =.= '', 3rd i can say that im bz that i dun even have time to go online,but somtimes lazy also.. ok,now straight to the point.

Guess who? ya Him..hehee

Gurmit Singh aka Phua Chu Kang
was in miri on the 21st of september..

i still cant believe my eyes! he was infront of me when he arrived Miri.. we got like "the VIP" pass, thanks to Daddy we get to have supper with him too..0.0

The FGB (Full Gospel Business) Men's Fellowship has organized an evangelistic rally with Gurmit Singh at Imperial Hotel.the ballroom was pack with thousand of people..In this rally he talk about his testimony..very touching.. and he is a good singer too..i love his voice..So like WOW!!..Rock on uc Gurmit \m/he sang 3 songs that night.

During the supper he also told us,before he became an actor,he was a singer. One thing lar,for his age(44),he doesnt look like one.He looks Funny and kindna ugly(opps sorry),bcoz of his weird mole in PCK drama.BUT actually he looks handsom..ya a punjabi mix blood with chinese japanese.

what i get from his message he said that when your down,or when things goes wrong,seek God talk to Him by prayer and ask for his help. And he promise that he will answer..

ok,i'll stop here,b4 i gt disconneted again.

Pictures

Mr.Gurmit Singh arrived Miri Airport.

Me with Gurmit Singh

Don't put God 1st,

But put Him In everything.

xoxo

esther

someone's watching over me..=)

2008-05-06T16:51:00.000+09:30

This few days she was feeling down..she is missing some1 that was a part of her life story..she would watch his video,listen to his voice,his laughter b4 she goes to bed..she would close her eyes bfore she sleep,recall his face and think back about the past,the time they spent 2gether when he is still breathing..and never forget to say a prayer,she misses him so much.

she dreamt of him a few times and everytime she wokes up in tears..she misses him.. she miss all the moments during childhood time,where they use to climb up trees and roof top,juz to see the stars ,play in the river and 'takung kerbau ipu' in ba kelalan..those were the days..

evry year,april fool,they never fail to try and prank each other..she miss that..

during high school, they share books,drinks,foods, everything togther..tuisyen and escape classes togeher..he would sit beside her during exam (must),well what else cheating,they would be in the same group or partners for projects..1 cant go anywhere without the other 1..

she would always tell him about her relationship problems, now she dont know who to share it with..

' Aaron,

How r u doin up there? sure u like becuk up there kan. don jump so much ar..Ron,im lonely without u here..no 1 disturb2 me bully me,pinch and box me,and i dun have any1 to bite oso,(im sorry if it hurt u)..make me merajuk then pandai2 pujuk me afterthat..juz like to make me merajuk..no one to bece2 with oso..still remember we go and disturb ipu's chicken,from far again ipu shout,terus run go and mandi sungai again ..hahaak..

u are always there for me when im in trouble,help me and give me advise.i'll nvr forget ur last advice for me.. want to go out cant jual ur name oldy..hehee..

ron,there is alot of things that i wan to share with u ..but i noe,no need for me to tell,sure u noe oldy kan..but i wan ur advise..huhuu..

i would always wonder where would u be now if u are still with us,will we be goin to the same uni? or maybe u're goin to dentistry like u said u wanna be like uncle Bob or u might be taking safety courses, like u said b4 u go..

now tim looks like u,everytime i look at him,reminds me of u,the junior u..hehee..gawd,miss u so so so much....

i will never forget what u show me in this dream...

"I miss u,

I love u,

eventhough we can't be together,

we are still great cousin"

i woke up in tears again..

i miss u so much..u are not like the others..no 1 can take ur place..

and dont worry,i'll help u take care if dayang,timmy and tunung for u..

when will i see u again?i juz cant wait.. see u soon dear cousin...in HEAVEN..."

Father in heaven,

may u bless Aaron,please take care of him.. Lord,please give me the courage and strenght through out this life on earth..even without Aaron by my side i noe that u are and he is watching from above..Thank u for placing Aaron in a part of my life,im very happy to have not juz a cousin, a brother and a friend like him.. plz send my regards to him tell him i miss him..

Amen.

she learns that we will onli noe how to treasure and appreciatte a person when they are gone..

and from that onward,she tries her best toappreciatte those who r still beside her..

its never goodbye,but its just the beginning..

xoxo

esther

this is life..

2008-05-01T15:56:00.000+09:30

huh...last week was damn bz bz bz...i didnt even hav a good rest..with all the assignments,projects,presentation and quiz that is due that week..tired and i didnt even have enough time to really focus on my studies..thanks to my stupid uni,squeeze all the assignments and projects in term 3 when term 2 we all were 'goyang kaki' onli...
this is how it goes..(last week)
monday-physics presentation + chemistry quiz
wednesday-maths presentation
thursday-english assignment
friday-english test + maths quiz
(this week)
monday-bio booth
tuesday-chemistry presentation
wednesday- FINISH NO MORE!!!
but still big exam coming up in 5 weeks tym..then im going back to miri..yeah!!

some pics i took on monday..with all the hard work we've put in,it went well,even though some of the stuff we did last minute.hehee..well,our booth was about our 5 senses.tot that this topic might be easy since we've learn it during high school but not with all those show off medic student around asking question that they oldy noe the answer..heloo,we r onli foundation students OK!u wait until i enter degree then i tell u lar hoh!

hah the tiredness..was standing there and explaining from 9.30am to 3pm.. as usual lah,me kindna nervous..plus i didnt get a good rest that night and no mood even to take my breakfast..i even cant momorize my script but after talking to a few pple,it felt normal,not scared any more hehehee..=P

after the lecturer evaluate our group, then the crazyness start..DID (devil in disguise)
after the lecturer left,this is wat we do...

shoe modelling somemore

relaxation,with magazine..

gossiping with lots of SS sing pictures..

and well,,,all cindian sesat..

At last,its done!finish no more!!!!!

xoxo

ruran

Im speechless..sob

2008-04-14T16:10:00.000+09:30

well,the day has come..she turn's 19 when the clock struck 12 midnite..huh,she jus feel like wanna sleep early b4 the clock strike 12..At 1st she thought that her friends are going to throw a surprise b'day for her but her thought dissapear when she saw 1 of her roomie is oldy sleeping and the other was getting ready to bed,So maybe would be 2moro..sure dey are goin 2 do,eventhough i ask them no need 2 spend money..so maybe 2moro nite..

but then as she was preparing to go to bed,suddenly there was a phone call for her,so she went out..then she saw some of her friends and hsemates are standing in the living room holding a b'day cake,singing the "appy b'day" song..all the while her roomies were acting..

hahaak..esther say"well done guys ,Thank u! luve u all.." this was her second b'day cake..

With her gengs..friends..luv u guys..
with her friends,hsemates...

She woke up around 11 somthing..yesyes..she's a berek..but not a berek lemuh..hehee.. she got a call from her youngest sister,singing b'day song to her through the phone,huh,that time she misses home,sure her mummy will cook somthing special 2day..=(

well,she felt that her day was like the other normal days..she felt nuthing special..bz with her assignments and homeworks..after al those shit*,she went to nap again..hehee..ya,berek*.. she doenst feel like taking her dinner but then takut lapar,and thinking of temanING her roomie,she went down to the cafe with her.. when she reach there,she saw her friends was all there waiting for her,when dey saw her,the cafe was echoing with b'day song..she was 'speechless'..

she was touch to all her friends with 5 tables joining together,clbrting her day like 1 big family..awww....how sweet of them..she was like the queen of the day..

1 big family..

while eating,her friend coleen and annie excuses themselves.bcoz there say they have somthing to do..but then she thought of somthing was goin on,but then she said to herself,naa,dun think to much..but after a while,dey came back with another cake in their hand with another b'day song,her 3rd cake..homemade,i mean hostelmade..hahaak..and its frozen cheese cake,yumyum her favourite..saw their video,making the cake,really touch her..both of them put alot of effort and love on the cake,which make it taste delicious,can beat secret recipe 1 day..

both of them..annie and coleen..luf u both SOOO MUch!!
it says Happy 19th b'day, A&C..(dont wan to miss their name)

with the 19 so big..huhu..sure sengaja wan..

All the happy faces...

cant wait to taste the cake..with coleen,jeannette and lily.

Simmie,her vege came l8 coz she went back to penang..

and she bake her..

chocolate cookies..and 1 big cookies with her name on eat..

Awww..so sweet of her..(simmie can i frame it)

simmie,ur cookies taste better than famous amos..u can open ur own liao "famous simmie"

besides that,this is what she got...(i dunnoe wat to say)
All the love and wishes from her friends are in it..thanks again guys!

the hard work dey put to make tis book looks SOO......(i dunnoe wat to say)*speechless* with her roomies.ma and lily

AND thanks to bill,he even ask the january batch to sing her b'day song..
2day,her song for the day is the b'day song..
sang by bill,
"happy b'day 2 u,
makan ubi kayu,
minum susu lembu,
happy b'day to u"

Thank u so much every1..this is the best b'day ever where she got 3 cakes..!! and also to those sms wishes and calls..
Love u all..

xoxo
esther

If tomorrow never comes...

2008-04-13T05:55:00.000+09:30

Hah,its a saturday morning again..esther is so damn Bored,staying in the campus,sitting infront of her laptop,listening to music,chatting with her friends,sambil doin her physics PP presentation..she is very tired of all these assignment and projects that never finish.one after the other..seems like she dunt have enuf time to really study even,plus tis coming friday she gonna have bio quiz..huh,quizes are coming up oso..

Actually she plan to go out today,plan to watch death note,paly bowling,lunch at mcD but bcoz of

1.all the above

2.tiredness

3.she juz want to sleep until the sun is above her head just to get rid of those black circles around her eyes

lastly,she's BROKE.=(

huh..'_' next week lah..

What if tomorrow never comes..

she'll still be 18 and she wish to stay 18..2ml she's gonna be 19.. She prays to God,asking whether HE'll let her stay 18 again for another yr..hahaakk,how jual ikan (selfish) of her..and she knows that it is imposible.She felt that being 18 for a year is not enuf,tidak puas..

Last nite in church she got a surprise B'day cake from her church friends. She totally forgot her B'day is coming up.

"Thanks guys,especially to coleen and thomson"

Congrts, u mange to surprise her.

Her surprise b'day cake..

Thanks for the cake again guys..

But still she wish that she can celebrate her B'day with her family and friends back in miri..Its the second time she dont celebrte in miri..

Last but not least,

"Thank you dy,my for bringing me down to this world.love u both"

well Esther,

"congratulations u're 1 step closer to the grave"..

qoute by ps.John..

XOXO

urs truly

feeling down down down

2008-04-07T17:41:00.000+09:30

This few days im feeling down,i don't know what is wrong..There are alot of things in my mind,my studies,relationship between my friends,my cousins,i just feel that i don't know who to believe,who to share my problems with..or perhaps i worry to much.

But i also feels that im getting far away from God,sometimes i blame Him when things go wrong..hmm,i know i shouldn't do that..

Esther, what happen to u?

i just feel like want to scream my lungs out,everything seems to be at the wrong place..

sometimes i feel so tired already,tired of all this shit happening..How to end this?

what are friends for? to help u when u are in trouble,support u,gives advise when u are down,pick u up when u are down OR just to

backstab u,

cheat u,use u, just friends for benefits. Yeah,its so hard to trust people this days..well,u also never know that ur own blood can even backstab u..oo well,

'blood is thicker than water'..

might as well forget wat u did,i forgive u cuzzy..

huh,enuf of all this 'ewiruheuhf;ie'

wish that tomorrow we'll feel better..

Esther,just forget about those shit,and focus on tomorrow..dunt care bout them..

juz make donnoe and put a smile on ur face tomorrow..=)

2008-02-23T19:31:00.000+10:30

Today,we plan to go up to Alor Setar and Perlis since me n 3 of my Miri and 1 KL friend is not goin back,why done go 'cuti2 M'sia'..hehee..

so 11 of us are going,in 2 cars,like sardines..hehee..the journey took us 1 hour plus to reach Alor Setar,we stop for awhile to take our lunch..then 1 of my Perlis friend plan that since we r in Kedah,we should go and visit the Paddy museum and the crystal hill..

make story cut short,Off we GO!!

these are some pictures of the trip..

crytal hill the rice museum
6 of us in the matrix..well those behind are obviously

'small and slim' hehee....

11 of us,wif our BIG smiling face =D...
ini lah cara org dahulu menuai padi..

ok,ready,steady....PUSH!...hahaak...
me in blue wif da gurls..lets roar gurls...

'meow...'opps.. *cough* "ROOooaaaRrrrr!!"

At last,we reach Gua kelam..

goin into the cave..sempat again take picture..=)

Me wif Lily..acually we're scared..walking on a wooden bridge,below us is a river.. thats where i'll start to imagine stupid stuff,like maybe there's a crocodile in the water waiting for us to fall..0.0
At last we,reach the other end of the cave..Light,haaaa..but,we need to go back using this way again,huhuhuu...'_'

but still Sarawak Niah Cave is more bigger than Kelan Cave..

well,with all the fear,still can posing..hahaak..

all of us on the bridge..enjoying the view..

loving and enjoying the scenery,haa..fresh air..
All belongs to God,his beautiful creation...
After all the walking in the "forest" we got hungry..so off we went to MAKAN..yeahiii...

hah,we have our dinner with the view of the beautiful sunset..

after all da makan and chitchating,we went back to SP and we reach around 12 somthing in the morning..hehee..

hah,even though very tired and my butt is flat coz of the sitting in the car,im happy that i've been to the other end of West M'sia..

but there are still some beautiful place in Perlis that we didnt have time to visit,

well,i'll be back again Perlis..Just wait..hahaak..

=) =)

End of Term2.

2008-02-22T15:23:00.000+10:30

at last,1 week of exam is gone and i have panda eyes..hahaak..term 2 done! next is term 3,donnoe whether im going to continue here..but i think i will,so guys if u still see my face in campus after this 1week then im staying,if not,u know i know lah..
so after exam that day,in the afternoon we went to CS( the most happening place in SP) juz to go and have fun play bowling.some of the geng didnt join us cause bz packing,balik kampung,while those who are not going back or going back the next day enjoy ourselves in CS. This term,all of us from miri didnt went back.kindna regret didnt book ticket back..but me and lily thought of spending our 1 week holiday, "go cuti-cuti M'sia".hahaak.. So we are still planing though,planing how to fill activities for the whole week..but we have plan to go to kl,but still,dun noe wat to do there,tak kan shopping jak kerja rite,Lily..im gonna be broke lah..And i havent tell mummy that im goin,sure she worry that i use bus..
hmm,at night watch some movies and im gonna stay up late..

never end...

2008-01-26T19:08:00.000+10:30

last week was a very2 bz week..coz hav english assignment tat we hav presentation on friday(yesterday).. very day hav meeting (xcept 4 thaipusam tat day). meeting from 2pm-7pm..
huhu..very tired!!..plus some of da member cant come,some not serious,some juz talk crap, which coz us to drag everything till 7..make me cant go exercise..huhu..(hehee)..but after yesterday,my burden is lighten a little bit..yesterdays presentation was ok,i was a little nervous but thanks 2 all the advise,i think it works.. heheee..u noe wat, i was nervous until i played with the cup in front of me during da panel discussion,i put my pen in da cup,place da cup upside down, put it on my lap which makes some of my frens laugh at me..=) but afterdat i wasnt tat nervous..
thanks to God too(lov u)...
but i still hav tons of homework n 1 more assignment(physic) which need 2 past up b4 i go back 2 miri..huh,tis will nvr end i think,after CNY gonna hav term exam..i dunnoe whether i can ( sorry daddy), i'll try my very best to do it..

2008-01-23T23:39:00.000+10:30

"I'd Lie"

I don’t think that passenger seat

Has ever looked this good to me

He tells me about his night

And I count the colors in his eyes

He’ll never fall in love he swears

As he runs his fingers through his hair

I’m laughing cause I hope he's wrong

I don't think it ever crossed his mind

He tells a joke I fake a smile

That I know all his favorite songs

And..

[chorus:]

I could tell you his favorite color's green

He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth

His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes

And if you asked me if I love him,

I’d lie

He looks around the room

Innocently overlooks the truth

Shouldn’t a light go on?

Doesn’t he know that I’ve had him memorized for so long?

He sees everything black and white

Never let nobody see him cry

I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine

[chorus]

He stands there then walks away

My god if I could only say

I’m holding every breath for you...

He’d never tell you but he can play guitar

I think he can see through everything

But my heart

First thought when I wake up is

My god he’s beautiful

So I put on my make up

And pray for a miracle

Yes I could tell you his favorite color's green

He loves to argue oh and it kills me

His sisters beautiful he has his father’s eyes

And if you asked me if I love him

If you asked me if I love him

I’d lie

my 1st post...hehee..

2008-01-22T04:03:00.000+10:30

hmm..wat should i write..?1st time..hehee..well pple always ask me to start a blog,so guys i think i've it already..hehee..
many things has happen recently,family problems (hate it),quiz,a table full of assignment,trip to penang, meet new friends and many more..this friday gonna hav english panel discousion n im gonna act as the person who has tis 6 sense..kinna scary oso coz 4 da past few days i have nightmares..i want it 2 finish fast so tat i can focus on my studies..i hope i still can cope..hehee.. plus tis bio lecturer didnt turn up 4 2 weeks oldy n our term exam is less then a month..huhuu. and we still hav 2 chapters 2 cover up..

now,im missing home,mummy's cooking..huhuu..miss my friends(miss all ur jokes)..
well,im goin home like in a week time..yippy!!

well i'll try 2 post again if i not malas..hehee

ster

......A POCKET FULL OF STARS.....

might be moving site

At Last...

life

stupidity

TAGGED

10 pins to lights

midnight bottle

moneymoneymoney....

feeling lost and *syuk* today

Somebody...somebody

things we enjoy doing...

so sudden

bad weekend

the tired week starts...

The Lighter side

simple and sweet

5050

Daylight saving..

Superclarifragilisticexpialidous

verbal diarrhea

dream came true..

2nd day placement.

down n sick

bored in class.

this song is in my head

Australia....

Life in KSKB

He was in miri...!!!!

someone's watching over me..=)

this is life..

Im speechless..*sob*

If tomorrow never comes...

feeling down down down

End of Term2.

never end...

my 1st post...hehee..

feeling lost and syuk today

Im speechless..sob